I am not writing to complain about it. I love my life and I wouldn't trade it for the world!!! I am writing because I had a very profound ah-ha! moment and a pretty good laugh at how little time I actually devote to myself and I figured I'd share it because I KNOW (!!!) I am not alone!
How many times do you look at your watch and then do the math? "Okay, if I hurry right now I have just enough time to turn the shower water on turn around in the water about 2.75 times with some body wash on a scrubby and pray that I don't miss any parts and I smell half way decent on the other side... if not... well, I tried!" or "Okay, I have just enough time to get in and get clean! No hair washing or shaving... just soap and scrub!" or "I have time to wash the hair but not shave the legs!" Or .... you get the point. Maybe sometimes it's "I have plenty of time, but _____ really needs to be done and I haven't had time to do that so if I just do a quick in and out...!"
Well, today, by 12:45, I had made a dress, cleaned the pool, cleaned the kitchen, done 4 loads of laundry and dinner was fully cooked and waiting for supper after the kids get home and we fly out of the house to 3 different ballparks. (did I mention that Robert is gone for 6 weeks?) There is plenty more to do around here trust me! I could work the next 8746873846387 hours and never even catch up probably! LOL!
During all my activities this morning my facetime on my phone rang and it was Robert! YEA!! Until I answered it and saw my video stream staring back at me with crazy hair, no makeup, huge shirt that I slept in last night... Holy Moly! Who the heck was that woman? Oh! ME... Thankfully the connection failed! LOL! So, we just chatted on FB for a bit. So, I immediately made the decision that something had to be done about this. Something's gotta give! So, I decided that I am worth a shower... a FULL shower! With a razor and shaving cream and shampoo and conditioner and body wash... Oh... And lotion afterwards... from head to toe! AMAZING! Just thinking about it makes me want to do it again right now and my hair is still wet! LOL! How sad is that??? It took all of 15-20 minutes!
Have I convinced myself that I am not worth even 15-20 minutes a day? I can't blame the kids, they are at school all day! I can't blame my hubby! He's in AFRICA! So, it's gotta be me, right?! So, right now I am in a state of apology to myself! "Brandie, you are worth AT LEAST 15-20 minutes a day!"
The bible says MANY MANY times over to "Love your neighbor as you love yourself!"... if I did that based on what I have said in this post, I sure wouldn't be giving much now would I?
What about you? Are you worth it?
